there always seems to be so many things. so many things to do, so many things to see, to read, to watch, to hear and to pay attention too. (there even feels like there are too many things to say about there always being so many things!)
it can be really hard to feel like you are staying centered or balanced or whatever – and to know that you are hustling (like this kind of hustling) and challenging yourself to move forward while also appreciating what’s already around you without getting burnt out. that’s something i definitely haven’t figured out yet – and one of my current things within all the things i tend to struggle with.
i have a 45 degree curve in my spine. well, actually two curves – but the 45 degree one is the bigger one in the lower part of my back. for a long time growing up doctors tried to convince me to get surgery to straighten me out (i.e. put metal rods in my back to support my spine.) something about it never felt right so i put it off for as long as possible.
about five years ago i met a girl sitting next to me on the plane who also had scoliosis but had gotten the surgery. i asked her about it as we both did awkward stretches to relieve our pain on the plane, and she told me that even though she was technically “straight” now, she still had a lot of pain and had to work just as hard to have strength in her back.
i don’t think i realized it then – but this glimpse into her own personal experience helped me avoid back surgery even when it seemed like the only option, and to work towards being stronger and pain free without the metal rods. in retrospect it seems simple and somewhat obvious, but realizing that regardless of what so many doctors said – technically, all of our spines are curved in one way or another and being straight doesn’t necessarily mean being “better.” years later, i still think about this idea – but in so many more aspects of life than i would have ever imagined.
we never really know the right way, or right thing to do, do we? i’ve been feeling a lot of uncertainty these days. fear is a powerful emotion and can make you feel all kinds of crazy… but i just try to remind myself that it doesn’t pay to get discouraged. plus – i’m making a book! and i’m sure as hell not uncertain about that (nervous, definitely, but not uncertain!)
if you haven’t checked out my kickstarter, you still can! i’ll be selling books for another 7 days.
i’ve officially reached my funding goal!!! i can’t even believe it. (i feel like I keep saying that these days, but it’s true!) thanks to all who supported the campaign, and after only 10 days, i get to make this book! this is so huge for me – i’m ecstatic and so grateful for all the incredible people in my life that helped me do this. my heart might explode. for real.
the campaign will continue for the next 20 days, so more people can still get the book! (now time to plan and budget some stretch goals; hopefully something that gives all of the backers something new… hmm)
oh, and i get to head east tomorrow bright and early to see my family! things are really good. here’s a celebration photo from the car earlier:
truth is – i’m really nervous. i’m also really excited. i’m 75% funded! doing a kickstarter is definitely a roller coaster ride, and i’m counting down the days until the campaign is over. so close yet so far. if you’ve supported me in any way this past week, thank you so much again. i can’t believe how awesome everyone has been.
if you haven’t seen it yet, i’m in the middle of a kickstarter campaign to self-publish a book of my drawings: http://bit.ly/ifeelweird
let me know what you think, and please share with anyone who you think might like it. i still have 23 days, and i want to try to get this book to as many people as possible!
it’s been a crazy week! between the excitement of launching the campaign and trying to keep up with outreach, i’m happy it’s the weekend. more time to draw, and more emails to send.
a weekend update with some kickstarter insiders:
kickstarter is really cool. it gives you all sorts of analytics and cool information on your campaign so you can see where your donations are coming from. it’s hard to track and analyze data after only 4 days, but it still helps.
here’s some snippets of what it shows me:
(this shows that i’m already 62% funded! crazy.)
kickstarter also shows me cool information on where my backers are coming from. whether they were referred from kickstarter, through external search, or direct traffic.
bit.ly is also really cool because you can track the link, to see how many clicks it has gotten:
(so i’ve gotten 378 clicks total, mostly on launch day.)
i can then compare that with how many people watched my video:
it’s nice every once in awhile to try to take an outsiders perspective on all of this data so i can focus. it pushes me to continue to move full speed ahead on outreach and trying to expand my audience.
i still have more to raise! and i still have a lot more books i want to get out there.
i woke up this morning on day 3 and am now, officially, over50% funded!
it’s been an incredible past couple days. i’m amazed at all of the love, support, and encouragement from all of you and it makes me so excited to make this book!
i couldn’t do it without the support of all of my amazing backers. thank you again for everything. please continue to share the campaign with anyone who you think might like it – i still have a ways to go!
before I get back to work, a quick dance around my room to celebrate this first milestone:
that’s basically the main emotion i’ve been feeling today. (the 6 cups of coffee also probably didn’t help).
either way – the first 12 hours of my kickstarter are complete! i managed to get through what feels like the hardest part: actually clicking launch. i woke up at 7am, made coffee, wrote more emails and from 8:59 to 9:01 stopped breathing. and now i can look back and say i’m 39% funded in 12 hours!
i’m so amazed at all of the support and encouragement i got today. the internet is so fucking cool. (and i have some ridiculously awesome friends and family.)