i’ve always had a lot of feelings. they seem to just come flooding into life – impossible to cover up or keep myself dry with any sort of “keep out” or “I don’t care I’m trying to be cool” attitude. an on-going, never-ending roller coaster of emotions. and i seriously hate roller coasters.
i think when you’re in high school – and even for most of college – you can typically get by with the idea that although you are feeling so many things you will one day, “figure it all out.” a few years ago thanks to a couple cynical relatives i realized that this was total crap and not only was i never going to figure it all out – i was always going to feel like this.
it was right around this time that i also started drawing. it was all about being a smart ass and trying to make my friends and family laugh – often times when things were really sad, but also when they were happy. i guess in hindsight recognizing that i am probably always going to have all these crazy emotions also reminded me that i can grab them by the balls and try to turn them into something i enjoy.
it’s a work in progress – but cheers to hoping we can keep making stuff that makes us all feel a little bit less crazy.
there always seems to be so many things. so many things to do, so many things to see, to read, to watch, to hear and to pay attention too. (there even feels like there are too many things to say about there always being so many things!)
it can be really hard to feel like you are staying centered or balanced or whatever – and to know that you are hustling (like this kind of hustling) and challenging yourself to move forward while also appreciating what’s already around you without getting burnt out. that’s something i definitely haven’t figured out yet – and one of my current things within all the things i tend to struggle with.
how do you find balance within all the things?
From Neil Gaiman’s 2012 commencement address at Philadelphia University of the Arts. The best ever.
we never really know the right way, or right thing to do, do we? i’ve been feeling a lot of uncertainty these days. fear is a powerful emotion and can make you feel all kinds of crazy… but i just try to remind myself that it doesn’t pay to get discouraged. plus – i’m making a book! and i’m sure as hell not uncertain about that (nervous, definitely, but not uncertain!)
if you haven’t checked out my kickstarter, you still can! i’ll be selling books for another 7 days.
i’ve officially reached my funding goal!!! i can’t even believe it. (i feel like I keep saying that these days, but it’s true!) thanks to all who supported the campaign, and after only 10 days, i get to make this book! this is so huge for me – i’m ecstatic and so grateful for all the incredible people in my life that helped me do this. my heart might explode. for real.
the campaign will continue for the next 20 days, so more people can still get the book! (now time to plan and budget some stretch goals; hopefully something that gives all of the backers something new… hmm)
oh, and i get to head east tomorrow bright and early to see my family! things are really good. here’s a celebration photo from the car earlier:
we all need help every once in awhile, you feel me?
i woke up this morning on day 3 and am now, officially, over 50% funded!
it’s been an incredible past couple days. i’m amazed at all of the love, support, and encouragement from all of you and it makes me so excited to make this book!
i couldn’t do it without the support of all of my amazing backers. thank you again for everything. please continue to share the campaign with anyone who you think might like it – i still have a ways to go!
before I get back to work, a quick dance around my room to celebrate this first milestone:
I just launched a kickstarter campaign to self-publish a book of my drawings!
You can check out the campaign here: bit.ly/ifeelweird
thank you so much in advance for your support! please share it with anyone who you think might like it.