thinking about life choices and other seemingly important things.
On May 2nd two years ago, I was screaming in my car trying to take a one-handed selfie, feeling like I had won the internet:
I had just successfully funded my Kickstarter campaign – and after 9 days, and probably 1000 emails later, I had reached my goal to make a book. It was one of the greatest moments, and definitely the most money I’ve ever had in my bank account at one time.
My older sister had done a Kickstarter, and warned me that the campaign takes a lot out of you. “You think your project is over when you get funded, but you’re just getting started. Give yourself a lot of time.” She’s typically right, so I listened and did give myself a lot of time. Side note: if you’re reading this and thinking about doing a Kickstarter, give yourself more time than a lot of time. You’ll want it.
I was pretty close to being finished with a draft of the book when the campaign was funded, but I had barely begun the nitty gritty part. Once I had all 100 pages (painstakingly narrowed down from 500-600), I still had to make sure each was scanned and made to be fit to print.
I didn’t know much about scanning and printing images – so I googled a ton and tried to find decent and trustworthy information. It was tough. Only a few of my favorite visual artists actually answered those questions online – but the ones who did, I read religiously. I googled what pens they use, what color, whether they scan their drawings then ink them, or just scan. There wasn’t much – but when there was, it felt like a text book in how to actually do this straight from the people who do.
I could go on and on. There’s so much that I could write about the process of making the book and doing the Kickstarter. The late hours, hundreds of stacks of paper, self-doubt and self-obsession, elation, and most importantly feeling like you may never actually finish it and will be embarrassed for the rest of your life. But in the end, you hold something that feels like a gem you carved out of a rock or cinder block. The finished product has its problems – the resolution is screwed up on a few pages, there are a few spelling errors, etc. But all in all, it’s mine, and I managed to actually do it.
I write all this because 2 years later, I think its about damn time I do this process again and make another book. It’s fun to reflect back, because when you’re in it and right after, there’s almost too much going on to have any real perspective.
I’m excited to have that perspective now while I make the new book. There are many things I know I can do better, and now I have a better sense of how. My biggest fear other than failure (which is typically my biggest fear), is that when I did the Kickstarter I had all of these backers put their faith in me to deliver. That was without a doubt the greatest gift. Now I need to figure out how to do that on my own, without the extreme pressure of already having so many peoples money. Ha. We’ll see how it goes.
For those of you that have supported me since the beginning, thank you. I couldn’t do this without you. And for anyone else, I hope you’ll stick around. It means the world to me, and I’m so grateful for the support.
Check out the book here.
Anyone who knows me knows how much I love coffee. In fact, I’m an unapologetic coffee addict. It’s in my blood. (Or thanks to the fact that I’ve been drinking lattes since age 10). Either way, this morning my boyfriend and I decided to try out the new 4-month coffee pop up shop at Lucky Duck by Square One on Hyperion in Silverlake. We were so excited when we realized that the pop up, a.k.a GGET was actually a spin off of G and B coffee, that makes one of the best damn iced lattes in the history of iced lattes.
Here’s proof from the New York Times: The Best Iced Latte in America?
In honor of the excitement I felt this morning knowing that this awesome iced latte is just a few minutes away, I wanted to share five coffee drawings I’ve done for any other enthusiasts out there. And if you’re in the LA area, I definitely recommend an iced almond macadamia nut latte from GGET.
Hope you enjoy, and happy Monday!
1. more coffee less problems // drawn at GGET coffee pop up shop in Silverlake, CA
2. coffee and bullshit // drawn at Cafecito Organico in Silverlake, CA
3. I love you almost as much as I love coffee // drawn at home for someone I love
4. coffee business // drawn at home for the I Feel Weird book
5. need coffee so bad please help // drawn while seriously jet lagged in Vietnam
I’m feeling really good about this you guys.
“The revival series will focus on DJ Tanner, who is a recently widowed and pregnant veterinarian. Her younger sister and aspiring musician Stephanie Tanner and her childhood best friend, Kimmy Gibler, along with Gibbler’s feisty teenage daughter Ramona, move in to help DJ raise her two sons – rebellious 12 year old J.D. and neurotic 7 year old Max – and soon to arrive baby.” – Variety // @netflix #FullerHouse
Here is John Stamos making the announcement on Jimmy Kimmel Live:
Heart shaped candies and pink boxes of chocolate are popping up everywhere, so I’ve decided to do a project inspired by love. The ever so complicated feeling is one of my favorite things to draw about – not just love of your significant other, but love of your family, friends, or even a complete stranger. It’s messy, wonderful, heart wrenching, heart expanding, and arguably one of the most important things in our lives. Amidst all of the complicated stuff love can also be surprisingly simple and fun. It’s mysterious, but it’s something for everyone.
So here’s the deal – for the next ten days, I want to try and send out 100 anonymous secret admirer postcards, and I hope you’ll help me! Here’s how:
If you fill out the form here I will send an anonymous personalized drawing on a postcard to the person of your choosing. All you need is a mailing address and someone you are particularly fond of. (Note: the postcards are free and will stay anonymous. I’ll make them on first come, first serve basis until valentine’s day or supplies runs out.)
Let’s do this! Surprises are fun, and everyone deserves a little extra love. Check back over the next couple weeks to see what people are getting. #secretadmirerpostcards
serial podcast has been over for a couple of months now, and i have to admit i’m still not over it. i wake up on thursday’s a bit less hopeful, definitely less happy, and somewhat disappointed. while we wait for season 2 and try to pretend it’s not the ex you can’t stop looking at pictures of who never told you why it didn’t work out – i’ve compiled a list of my favorite other podcasts i’ve been using as coping mechanisms. (they are actually pretty good supplements!)
- 99% invisible
- design matters with debbie millman
- strangers by lea thau
- wtf with marc maron
- dear sugar
- theory of everything
- here’s the thing with alec baldwin
- this american life
(props to radiotopia for building an awesome podcast community and introducing me to so many of these gems!)
i’ve always had a lot of feelings. they seem to just come flooding into life – impossible to cover up or keep myself dry with any sort of “keep out” or “I don’t care I’m trying to be cool” attitude. an on-going, never-ending roller coaster of emotions. and i seriously hate roller coasters.
i think when you’re in high school – and even for most of college – you can typically get by with the idea that although you are feeling so many things you will one day, “figure it all out.” a few years ago thanks to a couple cynical relatives i realized that this was total crap and not only was i never going to figure it all out – i was always going to feel like this.
it was right around this time that i also started drawing. it was all about being a smart ass and trying to make my friends and family laugh – often times when things were really sad, but also when they were happy. i guess in hindsight recognizing that i am probably always going to have all these crazy emotions also reminded me that i can grab them by the balls and try to turn them into something i enjoy.
it’s a work in progress – but cheers to hoping we can keep making stuff that makes us all feel a little bit less crazy.
there always seems to be so many things. so many things to do, so many things to see, to read, to watch, to hear and to pay attention too. (there even feels like there are too many things to say about there always being so many things!)
it can be really hard to feel like you are staying centered or balanced or whatever – and to know that you are hustling (like this kind of hustling) and challenging yourself to move forward while also appreciating what’s already around you without getting burnt out. that’s something i definitely haven’t figured out yet – and one of my current things within all the things i tend to struggle with.
how do you find balance within all the things?